Passage From the Past, Wisdom in the Future

An old verse I wrote, driving.  Angry, upset, hurt, spiteful.   It's interesting how all those feelings that I had for someone, have lost their weight; they seem to have no direct correlation to my thoughts and actions now, compared to how it was in the past.   I wonder sometimes how much of them are there, influencing me subconsciously.  I wonder if the pain is still there a tiny bit, and I just cannot see it.  

To linger on that thought would possibly be a waste of time; unless, of course, I was making decisions that were irrational or dangerous to myself or others.  I think my time would be better spent observing the fact that I felt such intense emotion toward something, or someone, at some point in my life; now they are all or nearly all gone.  Feelings that would have at one moment decided my actions with such great weight, have become nothing more than knowledge for me to derive wisdom from.

Now what do I do with that observation? Do I take from it that idea that everything and everyone I feel passionate for  now, could be just a fond, distraught, or neutral whispered memory in the back of my mind someday?  If I were to come to that conclusion, would I really need to let my feelings roam grow strongly just to become feint?
If not then what conclusion or idea should I draw? Possibly that I need, or would like to overcome this... chain of events, and find something everlasting.  Or maybe all that is everlasting is inside of me already, and I can easily spread that over everyone I come in contact with; therefore, making it possible to cary intense, everlasting emotions to each person I meet, and even those I don't.  Or focus on some everlasting "thing" to focus passion on.  Music, God, unified consciousness, universal knowledge.

Anyway, just thoughts.

As to the passage:

You move onto the bed

Taking off all your cloths

Oh wait he grabs your thigh

He's got his lips clenched tight

He moves up to your face

And then your hips connect

Oh god it feels so right.

This is your life tonight

Oh god it feels so good 

To have him close to you

It's just the alcohol

It's just the alcohol 

But we both know where this goes

Your making a mistake

This is. More than I can take